Pretender

I like it when you take the reigns
It's easier than playing games
I've come to appreciate a direct exchange

I'm stronger now that I'm softer too
I'm older now
But feel younger than when I
Pretended to know everything
Wanted to win rather than learn something
I'm glad I stayed myself
Even when I wanted to be someone else

I didn't listen with my gut and it shows
I could never get too close
Had all my walls up

But I am more than my defenses
I'll break them all down
I've made promises to myself and I intend to keep them

I deserve my honesty
How sweet it could be
If I could love myself
Even when I wanted to be someone else