(Mmm)
(You never knew)
You'd drop your keys beside my bed
Kick off your boots like you lived here too
Talk for hours about the boys who broke you
While I broke quietly over you
Your hoodie stayed hanging on my chair
Still smelled like cedar and midnight rain
Funny how love can hide inside
The smallest things we can't explain
You'd laugh, tilt your head back
Run your hand across your jaw
I learned that wanting someone
Doesn't always arrive like lightning
Sometimes
It learns your name
Before you notice the storm
You never touched me differently
You didn't have to
Every smile
Moved the line
I kept pretending wasn't there
You were never mine
But you felt like home
Close enough to reach
Too far to hold
Every quiet night
You filled the room
Without knowing
You became
Everything
I couldn't lose
And never had
You'd step out of the shower
Steam wrapped around your skin
Pull on another white t-shirt
Like the world hadn't shifted again
I kept my eyes where friendship lives
Even when they wanted more
Because desire remembers
Every little thing
The vein beneath your wrist
The scar above your knee
The way your voice got softer
Whenever you talked to me
We fell asleep through movies
Neither of us watched
I wasn't dreaming of forever
I was grieving
A future
That had never belonged to me
Maybe love (maybe)
Was never the tragedy
Maybe silence was
You were never mine (never, you never)
But you felt like home
Every almost
Still echoes
Like your favorite song
You never made a promise
Still I kept waiting
For something (for something)
Neither of us
Could become
If I could rewrite one memory
I'd still meet you
I'd still love you
I'd just ask my heart
To arrive later
After you'd already gone
Some people become ghosts
Long before goodbye
You became one
Standing right beside me
You called me brother
I answered with a smile
Because loving you
Silently
Was easier
Than losing you
Completely
You never knew
Maybe
That was the kindest thing
You ever did