The ceiling fan spins a slow orbit over my head
Tracing the patterns of every heavy word I should have said
I'm sorry the shadow I cast was a little too long
And that the weight in the quiet felt entirely wrong
You saw the shining in the armor, but missed out on the rust
How hard it gets to hold on to even a fraction of trust
Now there are pieces to gather
The heavy burden that I carry just to be who I am
Who could ever stand to hold it if you wouldn't even try to understand
That not every color that I have to show
They were born with a silence you will never know
Talking to the wall is just marking the pace of the night
And the ghost of my apology is still searching for light
I didn't mean to make my survival look like an art
Or to let my own walls keep us so far apart
Now the room is too quiet
And the air is too still
I'd take back the silence if I only had the will
Now there are pieces to gather
The heavy burden that I carry just to be who I am
Who could ever stand to hold it if you wouldn't even try to understand
That not every color that I have to show
They were born with a silence you will never know
The mirror is a cold, unforgiving friend
Where all the false smiles and the stories come to an end
I looked right at it and the words just fell apart
Echoing the hollow spaces in my tired heart
Then I looked at the mirror and I said
Don't let me down
I only have you
Cláudio fontenelle
So here's my apology written in the grey
For all the things I couldn't find the strength to say
It is just you and me and the glass at the end of the day
And we are the only ones who can find a way to stay
To stay
To stay