I feel betrayed
I'm feeling some type of way, but I know
I won't be the one to call 'em out
I'm super, I'm super swayed
I'm used to being persuaded
I've been pushed around this block once or twice
And I
I tried to push myself away this time
Cause the old me would commit the perfect crime
Trust me I know, I've seen it all, oh she's done it all
I
Can I just write this song for me this time
'Cause I always give myself up every time
And say I'm fine
I feel insane
You know I tried to behave cause
I'm so fuckin' done with playing stupid games
I'm countin'
I'm countin' days to make my social escape
'Cause I'm not good at confrontation anyway
And I
I tried to change myself this time around
'Cause I promised that I'd make the small me proud
But who am I, kidding I've tried, a few hundred times
I
I'm fighting back these demons every day
Do you really think I wanna live this way
But I always stay
And at the end of the day, I swear I promise
I'll let the guiltiness fade, move far from it
The girl who trades her soul to make their day
And like a heart made of glass just please be gentle
She's still just trying to find what makes her special
She won't tell you but ask her anyway