Never once
Did it cross my mind to put up a front
But every day I'm trying harder not to black out the Sun
I'm not the one to grab a gun then pull it back and I'm done
'Cause all the people in my head would never tell me to run
There's violence inside of me
I hide it so casually
And now violence is taunting me
And I never get a break
But I just can't resist
God, is this a sign?
I've done no wrong
So why's it time
I smell my flesh burning as I'm crawling deeper within
I cannot ask again
My life is wearing thin
The outstretched hands begging me to pull them up
I'm tasting blood
Drag me down through the mouth of the earth
Eyes closed on decent to be reborn in the dirt
No light, no God, no fucking return
Just nine layers of suffering so now watch me burn
Never once
Did it cross my mind to put up a front
But every day I'm trying harder not to black out the Sun
I'm not the one to grab a gun then pull it back and I'm done
'Cause all the people in my head would never tell me to run
There's violence inside of me
I hide it so casually
And now violence is taunting me
And I never get a break
This is all my fault
I lost my faith in God