Holding on to who I was before
Before I lost you
I'm holding on to who I was before
Before I lost you
Scared of being honest with myself
Tired of always blaming someone else
And I've been smoking like I don't care 'bout my health
'Cause either way, life ain't fair, so fuck it, might as well
Lately, I've been looking back instead of forward
Getting lost inside a photo
We were laughing in the Rover
Now I can't help but look around to find a reason
Overdose on dopamine
Waiting for a double meaning
Yeah, lately, I've been
Holding on to who I was before
Before I lost you
I'm holding on to who I was before
Before I lost you
(La nuit dernière j'ai rêvé d'elle)
(On était à la plage le coucher de soleil)
I left my heart in a place that I can't go back to
I dyed my hair rose pink to feel like I have you
I don't wanna know what it means to let go, but I do
Yeah, I left my heart in a place that I can't go back to
Lately, I've been catching Z's and counting zeros
Hard to be in the mirror
Try my best to see it clear, but I can't help it
Getting lost in memories
I'm overdosing reveries
I feel closer when I'm dreaming
Lately, I've been
Holding on to who I was before
Before I lost you
I'm holding on to who I was before
Before I lost you
I try, but not enough
Can't keep my guard up
Unravel, spiral, I come undone
But if I close my eyes, I'm holding onto you, you, you
Holding on to who I was before (holding on, I'm holding onto who I was)
Before I lost you (holding on, I'm holding onto you)
I'm holding on to who I was before (holding on, I'm holding onto who I was)
Before I lost you (holding on, I'm holding onto you)
Oh (Holding on, I'm holding onto who I was)
Oh (Holding on, I'm holding onto you)
Oh, oh