I am made of silence and intensity
Of music that pulses in the dark
Of light that pierces through the soul
What hurts the most is not the pain itself
But the absence of a witness to it
I've been a bridge for so many
But no one was a harbor for me
I helped people find their way
And got lost on my own
I feel alone
Not for lack of people
But 'cause no one seems to see
The fullness of who I am
But I just want to scream
Yet my scream today is silence
I just want the hammock, the breeze, the sky
And Christ breathing here with me
I want the light in the dark
Not the crowd in the brightness
If someone could really see me
I just wish they'd see my worth
Not what I fix, not what I give
But who I am
When no one's watching
God
I still feel like a failing son
But I keep coming back to the same arms
'Cause even when I see myself as broken
Only Your embrace
Keeps me whole
I don't want to scream
My scream today is silence
I just want the hammock, the breeze, the sky
And Christ breathing here with me
I want the light in the dark
I want peace
Your peace