After all of this time
After every goodbye
I just wanna know what—
I find myself in this place again
I don't know what to call it, but it ain't depressed
I don't know if I'm here or I'm dead
Buried with the things I regret
Talking to the wall like a friend
And half the time, I'm dealing with a feeling that I can't define
Lookin' in my past for a sign
That something's gonna feel like it did
But nothin' ever feels like it did, so
I take a pill everyday
Try not to think about it
Wish all my problems away
Try not to think about it
But I don't think I can change
When all I think about is what I used to feel like
Maybe I should realize
After all of this time
After every goodbye
I just wanna know what happy feels like
'Cause I've been wasting my time
Always chasin' a high
I just wanna know what happy feels like
I thought that money and trust could buy security
Two things that only enable the thing that's hurting me
Two things that only enable the insecurities
And that's the only thing I feel, so, I still
Take a pill everyday
Try not to think about it
Wish all my problems away
Try not to think about it
But I don't think I can change
When all I think about is what I used to feel like
I just wanna feel right
After all of this time
After every goodbye
I just wanna know what happy feels like
'Cause I've been wasting my time
Always chasing a high
I just wanna know what happy feels like
I tell myself: It's okay (try not to think about it)
Say: "I can live with the pain" (try not to think about it)
Push everybody away (when all I think about is)
What I used to feel like
Feels like I'm goin' insane (try not to think about it)
I'm even sick when I'm safe (try not to think about it)
So, what the fuck do I say? (When all I think about is)
What happened to my life?
What happened to my life?
How can I get some peace and rest? I just wanna know—
After all of this time (this time)
After every goodbye (every goodbye)
I just wanna know what (what ha—) happy feels like (what it feels like)
'Cause I've been wasting my time (wasting my time)
Always chasin' a high (chasin' a high)
I just wanna know what (what) happy feels like