help god

God, help me out, I'm filled with hate and pain
I don't even know where it came
Maybe I gave too much of me to some humans
Now all that hate is runnin' through my veins

Tears on my pillow, cryin' in silence
Hopin' they don't laugh behind it
Feels like I'm trapped in a cursed routine
Every time I fall, they come back mean

I just wanna hear the rain fall down
Wash away my thoughts, calm me down
Feels like no one's ever stickin' around
So I walk alone through this empty town

God, help me, even rain won't save
My peace is buried in a broken grave
Lost too many people, the rest stepped on me
I'm hurt, okay bro, that's how it's gon' be

Yeah, I'm strange, I'm way too deep
Too intense for this world to keep
Flaws in my soul, cuts that bleed
But I still pray when I fall asleep