For the first time
I can't recognize myself
Try to get better
Even with professional help
But therapy's a bandage and I am the wound
Yeah, I've done some damage I'll never undo
So I dyed my hair and carved ink in my skin
To cover up all the things I hate within
I need to change and learn to run away
A prescription for love that I'll never take
I need to change and cut off yesterday
Cause the things that hurt the most are the things that feel safe
Run away, run away
Run away from the way words face
Run away, run away
And learn to make permanent change
I thought a lot about it
The grief comes in waves
I killed the man I'm supposed to be
Closed the doors of fate
Self-sabotage with every chance that I get
Cause I don't deserve love of a means to an ends
I'm always screaming on the inside
Trying to find a way out of this horrible bodysuit I'm wearing
But life has lowered me down
I need to change and learn to run away
A prescription for love that I'll never take
I need to change and cut off yesterday
Cause the things that hurt the most are the things that feel safe
Run away, run away
Run away from the way words face
Run away, run away
And learn to make permanent change