XI

I'll be twenty in a couple months
Feels like my life ain't done enough
Still waiting for my parents': We're proud of you
Still searching for a moment that feels true
And it hits me hard 'cause I made that promise

I'm not the person I told you I'd be, mom
Dad's still working every single night
And I still can't handle this anxiety fight
I'm still just a kid scared of the dark

Scared of the quiet and my own heart
But even more scared of the world outside
And everything I'm trying so hard to hide
But I'm tired of this shit
I need a change

Something's gotta shift
Something has to break
All of this pain has to get better someday
Eleven XI feels like a sign on the way