I cried more in your arms

I trusted you with my softest parts
The pieces I don't show the world
I let my guard down, laid my head on your chest
Thought I was finally safe but I was wrong
I kept telling myself love takes patience
While I was losing sleep, losing myself
I stayed quiet when it hurt too much
Told myself this was what love feels like
I smiled through the cracks while my heart was breaking slowly at night

You said you'd never let me cry
But I cried more in your arms
You said you'd never let me down
But I was let down more in your arms
You said you'd never hurt me
But I was hurt more in your arms
I gave you my heart with no defense
And you held it while it fell apart
I blame myself more than I blamed you
What did I do wrong this time?
I loved you louder, tried harder, stayed longer
While you pulled away inch by inch
I was drowning right next to you
And you didn't even notice
I kept believing tomorrow would change
That you'd wake up and choose me again
But how can heart weather stay so long
And love shouldn't feel like this

I twisted every word you said
And every word cut deeper than silence
But maybe it just hurts more
Because you're closer to my heart
That's the truth I couldn't say out loud
You made so many promises I believed
But you gave me more broken promises than I ever know
Now I'm left holding pieces of a love
That only broke me
You were the place I ran to for safety
But you became the pain I couldn't escape
I loved you with everything I had
Still it wasn't enough to make you stay
I didn't expect perfection
I just wanted honesty and care
And now I'm learning how to heal
From the place I thought was safe