Scared Of Myself

(You're not good enough, life's not fair)
(If you die, no one would care)

When I was thirteen
I started gaining weight
So I started counting calories sometimes
When I was sixteen
Someone told me I was stupid
So I bit my tongue, let others speak their minds

Now I hear voices late at night
And, honestly, I'm terrified
That I'm never gonna be the same
Some people are scared of heights
And monsters coming out at night
But I'm afraid of somethin' I can't change

I'm scared of myself
If you asked me the truth, I'm not doing well
I'm afraid for my life
I'm at war with my mind, and nobody can help
My thoughts go: You're not good enough, life's not fair
If you die, no one would care
Oh, I've lost control
I'm scared of myself
If you asked me the truth, I'm not doing well
I'm not doing well

When I was nineteen
Someone stole my innocence
And the first thing that I did was blame myself
Now in my twenties
And I still feel like a kid
Tryna work through all that shit, but, God, it's heavy

Now I hear voices late at night
And, honestly, I'm terrified
That I'm never gonna be the same (same)
Some people are scared of heights
And monsters coming out at night
But I'm afraid of somethin' I can't change

I'm scared of myself
If you asked me the truth, I'm not doing well
I'm afraid for my life
I'm at war with my mind, and nobody can help
My thoughts go: You're not good enough, life's not fair
If you die, no one would care
Oh, I've lost control
I'm scared of myself
If you asked me the truth, I'm not doing well
I'm not doing well

(You're not good enough, life's not fair)
(If you die, no one would care)
(Oh, I've lost control)