For This Once

For this once
Will be showed
No welcome thoughts
Of failing these miseries
For your lack of answers
This just can't be your answer

Pretense, this path is called
Thence, I have often come
Rationalized, at least one should have
Evidence, just for this once

For this once
Understanding
For this once
Comprehension
Then fall beneath silence
That brings comfort
Spare me solace
For this once

Every time I take a look at the fractured remains
Ever left behind on this way
Mostly untouched, mostly self-imposed
Another proud state of mind
Dies with unknown consequences
It's the apparent inconsistency
Of regret and improvement
Too busy with denied self-pity
Too numb to step up just for this fucking once
Too weak for a change

Pretense, this path is called
Thence, I have often come
Rationalized, at least one should have
Evidence, just for this once
Bold, this pattern is
But faint, my will seems
And failure, I always see
So cold, I've come to be so

Sing repentance
Sing repentance
Sing repentance
Sing for suffering

For this once
Understanding
For this once
Comprehension
Then fall beneath silence
That brings comfort
Spare me solace
For this once