breathing

Cried up on my makeup
Soon as I left your place
I'm plagued by your thought, your smile
The look on your face

So call me insecure
But I don't wanna believe it
You say you never wanted to leave me
Thought that I'd get over it and I'd be just fine

But God, I'm not
You're still running circles through my mind
Though call me indecisive
I don't know what I want, but I think it's you
Hope you want it too

I thought it'd be easy to pack it up and say goodbye
Like we didn't mean it
But I'm lying, I'm lying

Next to somebody else
And I'm feeling and breathing
Hey, you're all that's left for me to run and leave him
'Cause I'm lying when I say I'm fine without you

Cried off on my makeup sitting here in my car
Can't take another lookalike of you at the bar
Go ahead and call me shallow, I could care less
'Cause it numbs the pain kissing some guy with your face

But it never works, it still hurts just the same
Imagining you instead of him, I slip up, say your name

I thought it'd be easy, I'd get up and say goodbye
Like we didn't mean it
But I'm lying, I'm lying

Somebody else I'm feeling, I'm breathing
All the stuff I need to leave 'cause
I am lying when I say I'm fine
'Cause it never works, it still hurts just the same

You instead of him, I slip up to say your name
I say I'm fine, but we both know I'm far from it
But no, I'll just lie, say he's everything I wanted

I thought it'd be easy to pack it up and say goodbye
Like we didn't mean it
But I'm lying, I'm

Next to somebody else and feeling and breathing
Hey, all that's left for me to not run and leave him
'Cause I am lying when I say I'm fine without you

Fine without you
I'm lying when I say I'm fine