Undermined Thoughts

These are the thoughts I never spoke
Carved behind my blank stare
A childhood lie that still choke
Buried alive in my despair

I was born here to break my will
With their names in my hands still
I can hear every voice crying for mercy
Every last fragile spark grows thirsty

Just see my state, I can't escape

Walls keep notes of every scar earned
Room of mirrors where the edges burn
Counting faults like teeth, I cannot chew

Undermined thoughts, pull me under the flood
A tidal grief made of rust and blood
Undermined thoughts, collecting the broken and lost
To display their slow descent into void

I want to hug you one last time
Fuck!

I want to forgive you, but I can't
Every lie you left now clings to me

Death is all he thinks about
Maybe this is the only salvation
Maybe this is the only route
Maybe death is the fucking solution

Undermined thoughts, pull me under the flood
Trapped in the ruins where sorrow stood
Undermined thoughts, collecting the broken and lost
To watch them fade slowly at any cost

I am the wound, I am the hurt