i used to hate

I used to hate
Jumping in cold water
Long talks with my mother
And the taste of alcohol

I used to hate
If someone didn't love me
And when people judged me
But now I don't mind at all

So if I can outgrow the person I was
Why can't I outgrow us? Oh

Shouldn't I be over you
That's what time's supposed to do
Turn me into someone new
Who can say your name
Shouldn't you be off my mind
I don't wanna spend my whole life
Waiting for the day
You're just something I used to hate

I used to hate
All of my big feelings
Till I learned how to feel them
And then felt them fade away

Now all I do is talk about you
To all my friends
My brother and my therapist
Know everything you ever said

So if I can outgrow the person I was
Why am I still messed up

I hate the way you haunt my sleep
I hate that you won't let me be
I hate how more than anything
Hating you only hurts me