my trauma and me

People expect me to be over you
And honestly so do I
I got to grieve for the appropriate
Amount of time
I should be fine

Over and over I think I've found closure
But no matter how hard I try

You still sleep in my bed
I step over your mess
On the kitchen floor
As I walk out the door
You're in my shaky knees
When I struggle to breathe
We're always intertwined
The two of us for life
I guess that's how it's meant to be
My trauma and me

It's weird how people treat me different
Now that I'm no longer so fragile
But I'm only held together with some super glue and stitches
Pull one thread and I'll unravel

I've tried to be who I was before you but
There's some things you just can't undo

You still sleep in my bed
I step over your mess
On the kitchen floor
As I walk out the door
You're in my shaky knees
When I struggle to breathe
We're always intertwined
The two of us for life
I guess that's how it's meant to be
My trauma and me

I've tried setting you on fire
And scattering the ashes
Tried to bury you down deep
But you claw your way back in
It's a lost cause
Pretending we're not
Sewn together
For worse or for better

You still sleep in my bed
Lay your head on my chest
I'm getting used to the weight
But it never goes away
You're in my shaky knees
When I struggle to breathe
We're always intertwined
The two of us for life
Most days wish I could leave
But I guess this is how it's meant to be
My trauma and me