Mother, Your Son Died on December 22nd

Mother, I depart, so as not to shame anyone
To disturb no one
So that all may be happier after my going
Such is how it happens
I truly wish that everyone would be better after my death
I long for everyone to forget me and not remember
Forgive me, mother

The air cuts my lungs, but I feel it for the last time
This frost penetrates me entirely, burning out the last remnants of warmth
It embraces me tighter than anyone ever did
I dissolve in its icy embrace, becoming part of winter
Only emptiness in my chest, only the crushing echo of forgotten screams

Mother, your son died on December 22nd
Forgive me for never being your light
May my emptiness become your peace
And with my last breath, I whisper your name

I yearned so much for this peace, this abyss
Where there are no reproaches, no hopes, no pain
Only absolute zero, an icy stillness
Where my demons will finally be silent forever
Forgive me for this weakness, for this selfishness
For choosing a world without you, without myself

Mother, your son died on December 22nd
Forever
In absolute silence
In icy emptiness