Eggshells

Patient, I am patient
I am waiting for you dear
I am counting up the moments spent
Until I have you here
And I am hoping I am wishing
I am praying to my God
That when I finally have you here
That it’s still something that I want

'Cause I am tired of fighting
Of holding what’s inside me
IIt’s alrights and I'm so sorrys
Yeah, the cycle’s never ending

And I can’t fight the feeling
That we are slowly sinking
That our worlds are growing distant
It’s getting hard for me to live in

No, I don’t want to hurt you
Want to leave you
But I can’t live with this sinking empty feeling
Like we’re working
And I can’t take one more second
Of these eggshells that we’re walking
This ain’t living
But it’s nothing I would say
It’s nothing I could change anyway

Reckless I am reckless
I'm just stupid for you, babe
I am lucid when you’re gone
And when you’re not it’s all a dream
I get soft and I get easy
I get lost inside your eyes
It’s some sick kind of magic
I forgive you every time

But I am tired of charming
Always getting what you want
The crumbs of your heart
They don’t sustain me
It’s just enough to keep me waiting
And I can’t fight the feeling
We’re a bomb that’s always ticking
A single nudge could fucking end it
I'm so sick of being cautious

No, I don’t want to hurt you
Want to leave you
But I can’t live with this sinking empty feeling
Like we’re working
And I can’t take one more second
Of these eggshells that we’re walking
This ain’t living
But it’s nothing I would say
It’s nothing I could change anyway

No, it’s nothing I would say
It’s nothing I could change
But you’re gonna watch me walk away
No, you don’t know how to make me stay

It’s nothing I would say
It’s nothing I could change
Oh, you’re gonna watch me walk away
Oh, you’re gonna watch me walk away

'Cause I am tired of caring
About your feelings when you spare none
Don’t want your love if it’s not consistent
Never knowing where we’re standing
And I can’t fight the feeling
That we are slowly dying
Like those flowers you always bought me
All those insincere apologies

No, I don’t want to hurt you
Want to leave you
But I can’t live with this sinking empty feeling
Like we’re working
And I can’t take one more second
Of these eggshells that we’re walking
This ain’t living
But it’s nothing I would say
It’s nothing I could change anyway