heavens in ashes

There's glass in a sunrise, blood in a prayer
I keep finding pieces of you everywhere
We built a church out of cigarette burns
And worshipped the things we swore we'd unlearn
I carved your name into my lungs
So every breath still cuts me once
And every scar you left behind
Feels more like proof that I'm alive

Heavens in ashes and I'm still cold
Trying to love what I can't hold
I'm not looking for faith or peace
Just something that reminds me of me
You can't save what's already gone
But I'll keep prayin' like I'm wrong
Heavens in ashes and I'm still singing along

Your voice still hides in the feedback hum
Like a ghost that never learned to run
I light another match and let it fade
Pretend the smoke remembers your face
There's holiness in what we destroy
And every wound was once a joy
If loving you was blasphemy
Then let me die believing

Heavens in ashes and I'm still cold
Trying to love what I can't hold
I'm not looking for faith or peace
Just something that reminds me of me
You can't save what's already gone
But I'll keep prayin' like I'm wrong
Heavens in ashes and I'm still singing along

Maybe the angels stopped listening
Or maybe I'll burn too bright to see
But if there's grace left in the embers it can stay
It doesn't own me

Heavens in ashes and I still choke
On every word I never spoke
You were the sin I couldn't cleanse
The prayer that never ends you
You can't save what's already gone
But I'll keep praying' like I'm wrong
Heavens in ashes and I'm still singing along