I've been addicted to the medicine

If I had seen what I'd become
I've been addicted to the medicine
I am the patron saint of lost causes
I got bones falling out of my closet
I know just where to keep all my losses
Tell me why I'm

Chasing shadows in the dark
Writing ends that never start
Hiding pain behind the art like medicine

Oh!
You're the chaos that I crave
The medicine that's in my veins
You're the cancer and the cure
The poison I prefer

Cherry coated sins keep the pain away
When I wanna isolate
Another round, try to feel at peace
Bad habits that I can't release
I am the patron saint of lost causes
I got bones falling out of my closet
I know just where to keep all my losses
Tell me why I'm

Chasing shadows in the dark
Writing ends that never start
Hiding pain behind the art like medicine

Oh!
You're the chaos that I crave
The medicine that's in my veins
You're the cancer and the cure
The poison I prefer

Oh, I just can't refuse
The way that you made me move
The worst of me, the best of you
That thing you do
Oh!
Oh, I cannot refuse
The fact that I still love you
The best of me, the worst of you
That thing we do

Oh, you're the chaos that I crave
The medicine that's in my veins
You're the cancer and the cure

Oh!
You're the chaos that I crave
The medicine that's in my veins
You're the cancer and the cure
The poison I prefer

Chasing shadows in the dark
Writing ends that never start
Hiding pain behind the art
Like medicine
Building walls around our hearts
Tearing love and hate apart
Painting lies to hide the marks
Like medicine