Sideways

No, this is not the way
Feel like I lost control
I know my own enemy
Looking back in the mirror at me
Is it fine as I lie crossed in my mind
Live or die, I just don't know
Paranoid and annoyed, better keep
My eyes my eyes locked to the ground

I wanna go straight but I'm so sideways (sideways)
When everything's right I show the wrong face
I tell myself it's what I needed
But each time I win I feel defeated

Fake animosity
Every time I call you out
I feel the insanity
Pulling me in all directions
It's not enough just to kill my vanity
You won't stop me till nothing's left
I'll fight back but I come up empty
Losing ground instead

I wanna go straight but I'm so sideways (sideways)
When everything's right I show the wrong face
I tell myself it's what I needed
But each time I win I feel defeated

I burnt all alone
Full of faith on my own
So I do, I try
I've been all but thrown away
But I won't drown in my sorrow
I fight to stay alive

I wanna go straight but I'm so sideways (sideways)
When everything's right I show the wrong face
I tell myself it's what I needed
But each time I win I feel defeated
I wanna go straight but I'm so sideways (sideways)
When everything's right I show the wrong face
I tell myself it's what I needed
But each time I win I feel defeated