sour sweetness

You got wounds under your sweater
That I can't help but see
I'm giving you special treatment
So you stay with me

But if I did something wrong
Would you ever care to tell me?
Or would you frown, lie
And lock it in your cage?

I decay in my room
And rise when it hits noon
If I'm not fed
Then I'll pass out soon

It's a bitter sour sweetness
That lurks in my mouth
And no matter how hard I try
I just can't rinse it out

Brushing my teeth so hard
Makes my gums bleed
And teeth fall out
Am I ever gonna feel clean again?

My past, it haunts me
And it holds a knife to my chest
I'm not who I was before

Am I entirely overthinking
Or are my thoughts reasonable?
Throw me over countless times
Then make me feel really stupid

I won't sugarcoat it
This wasn't what I expected
I never felt like I could be the victim
Of someone's evil fucking plan

It's a bitter sour sweetness
That lurks in my mouth
And no matter how hard I try
I just can't rinse it out

Brushing my teeth so hard
Makes my gums bleed
And teeth fall out
Am I ever gonna feel clean again?

My past, it haunts me
And it holds a knife to my chest
I'm not who I was before

I've had little help
And I've got no hope left in me
I wish you could join me
And fulfill my fantasy

Brushing my teeth so hard
Makes my gums bleed
And teeth fall out
Am I ever gonna feel clean again?

My past, it haunts me
And it holds a knife to my chest
I'm not who I was before