No Cause

So bored yet so worn out
Hidden in the waters
Disdain me, kick me out
Just like your others
Couldn't be bothered by the one who needed help
I thought I lost it all until I lost myself

I don't know what is real
I don't know what I feel
Tell me why I don't heal
Tell me why I'm still
Running in circles, can I please disappear?
Looking for purpose while I'm blinded by fear

Exhausted from my thoughts
Foreign aggression
Feels like I'm being watched
By your impression

I know It's hard to live without any expression
Remember that your pain can function like a weapon

I don't know what is real
I don't know what I feel
Tell me why I don't heal
Tell me why I'm still
Running in circles, can I please disappear?
Looking for purpose while I'm blinded by fear

Why do you still look so surprised
No matter how many times I try
Time and time again I fall, fall, fall, fall

Lies
Why do you still look so surprised
No matter how many times I try
Time and time again I fall behind

I think I'm falling asleep
I pretend that I'm free
So keep your distance from me
Not who you want me to be

So fucking worthless
So undefined
So fucking helpless
When will I thrive?

I don't know what is real
I don't know what I feel
Tell me why I don't heal
Tell me why I'm still
Running in circles, can I please disappear?
Looking for purpose while I'm blinded by fear

I don't know what is real
I don't know what I feel
Tell me why I don't heal
Tell me why I'm still
Running in circles, can I please disappear?
Looking for purpose while I'm blinded by fear