I'd Rather Overdose (feat. Mod Sun)

I'd Rather Overdose (feat. Mod Sun)

I'd Rather Overdose (feat. Mod Sun)

Can't let goCan't let go
I can't let you goI can't let you go
I try, but I always knowI try, but I always know
I wish you were holding me closeI wish you was holding me close
Can't be without you, I'd rather overdoseCan't be without you, I'd rather overdose

When you're messed up on those pills, you can't hear me cryWhen you're fucked up on them pills, you can't hear me cry
Without them, you're sick and we both know whyWithout them, you're sick and we both know why
Pint after pint till the well runs dryPint after pint till the well runs dry
If only you loved me like you love getting highIf only you loved me like you love getting high

I can't let you goI can't let you go
I try, but I always knowI try, but I always know
I wish you were holding me closeI wish you was holding me close
Can't be without you, I'd rather overdoseCan't be without you, I'd rather overdose

Messed up, can't slow downFucked up, can't slow down
Won't come down, don't know howWon't come down, don't know how
My dad's gone, my mom's proudMy dad's dead, my mom's proud
Got friends stuck in our hometownGot bros stuck in our hometown
My bank account's got zerosMy bank account got zeros
I'm supposed to be the heroI'm 'posed to be the hero
But here I am, still fucking upBut here I am, still fucking up
I'll drink my weight in beer though, II'll drink my weight in beer though, I
Know that you hate me and I hate me tooKnow that you hate me and I hate me too
I can't get over what I did to youI can't get over what I did to you
You tried to help me and it wasn't getting throughYou tried to help me and it wasn't going through
I hope that you miss me 'cause I miss you tooI hope that you miss me 'cause I miss you too

But I can't let you goBut I can't let you go
I try, but I always knowI try, but I always know
I wish you were holding me closeI wish you was holding me close
Can't be without you, I'd rather overdoseCan't be without you, I'd rather overdose

It was May 11th, 2019It was may 11th, 2019
I stayed up for a weekI stayed up for a week
All these drugs won't let me sleepAll these drugs won't let me sleep
I did one last line until both my eyes closedI did one last line until both my eyes closed
I said one last goodbye and then I overdosedI said one last goodbye and then I overdosed

They found me laid out on my bathroom floorThey found me laid on my bathroom floor
I knew I couldn't live life like this anymoreI know couldn't live life like this anymore
Been sober five years since the day I almost diedBeen sober five years since the day I almost died
I finally love myself the way I loved getting highI finally love myself the way I loved getting high

But I can't let you goBut I can't let you go
I try, but I always knowI try, but I always know
I wish you were holding me closeI wish you was holding me close
Can't be without you, I'd rather overdoseCan't be without you, I'd rather overdose