Lonely at the Top

Yeah, listen I want to help my favorites
To find that spark again
Somewhere deep in their hearts again
Man, chasin' them is how I made it
I felt this for a while, but couldn't frame it
In the proper rhythms, it seems like they stopped just like givin' a fuck and I fuckin' hate it
'Cause where you supposed to look on days when you feel unmotivated?
When all your heroes either disappeared or sound so deflated
The younger generation hellify, no I won't debate it
But they want what I got right now and one day they gon' obtain it
Still I find it hard to replicate what I'm longin' lately
That childish admiration like back when I had posters hangin'
I do my best with this first, but shit maybe there's no explainin'
Just ventin', it's no complainin'

But listen to me
For years I felt like an only child with no one to play with
The older kids I watched went up the slides the wrong way or hang upside down from monkey bars while I was lookin' from a far just hopin' for that future day when
I'd be able to do the same shit, but now that day's hit
Momma done let come outside, but now them slides are vacant
The big boys done skated
They pockets got too grown, for some it seems that love is gone
And now they pass the time with expensive glasses of wine at locations with the finest accommodations
And I ain't hatin' just more so thinkin' about complacence and the realization that one day that's what my fate is
The greatest hits fill up my playlist, not so much the latest
And I fuckin' hate it

For selfish reasons I think I could help them reiginite the flame and fall in love with this, a game
If they could trust in young Jermaine we'd do our drills, we'd shake the rust, we blow the dust off the pain and go shake up the game
And maybe then I'd have someone I want to be again
But even as I write that thought I don't believe it, dang
'Cause maybe it wasn't even them, it's really me that changed
Maybe it wasn't even them, it's really me that changed

Hum, shit
I never understood the phrase it's lonely at the top
Until I scaled that mountain all the way up till it stopped
And if you're ever blessed enough to make it to this spot
You'll see the ones you looked up to unfortunately had to drop
I never understood the phrase it's lonely at the top
Until I scaled that mountain all the way up till it stopped
And if you're ever blessed enough to make it to this spot
You'll see the ones you looked up to unfortunately had to drop