I Don't Do Drugs

I dream about you nightly
Oh, the things we do, unsightly
I dream of you undignified
Being kind, so compromising
Every evening so unseemly, that imagined touch
I'd like to blame the drugs, I don't do drugs

It's a beast I swore I mastered
I healed, but I went backwards
Now you're reaching through the sidewalk cracks
I buried you, but you came back
Sight for sore eyes, have to ghostwrite how I'd like your love
And I'd like to blame the drugs, I don't do drugs

Like a stone, I loved you sober all this time
Like a river, ran it over in my mind
Watched you go, watched you outgrow me
Did you try to save a piece of me for your afterlife?

There's no moving through this faster
So I'm talking to the plaster
The world outside is cold but vast
It waits for me, and I'll be back
Later hits me, that you miss me, but you didn't bring it up
You'd like to blame the drugs