Monsters

I see these monsters all the time
They show me bad things in my mind
I tried to run, I tried to hide
But they still come back every night
Ooh-ooh, I don't wanna see the monsters
Ooh-ooh, I don't wanna see the monsters
I see these monsters all the time
They show me bad things in my mind

And I don't even wanna sleep in my bed now (yeah)
Most days in my head now
Kinda feel I been lost and I'm checked out
Keep it real, I been livin' on the edge now
I admit it, I've attracted to my own hell
On my back, but I won't bail
And I hated where I'm at, but I won't dwell (yeah)
I just hope that I go back to my old self
Wish you knew what I seen, but I won't tell
And she go first, I been tryna find me on a soul search (what?)
Lost things that I love, but it don't hurt (what?)
Tryna therapy shit, but it don't work (no)
Hopin' I can find me with my own worth
But I know I gotta let my soul decide
Think about peace when I close my eyes
Only I can save me from my own demise

I see these monsters all the time
They show me bad things in my mind
I tried to run, I tried to hide
But they still come back every night
Ooh-ooh, I don't wanna see the monsters
Ooh-ooh, I don't wanna see the monsters
I see these monsters all the time
They show me bad things in my mind

Yeah
Know you wonder how I'm rich, but I'm still lost
Lot of wounds that I'm still scarred
Money never mean shit when you so broke
God seems so close, but He so far
Only thing is my kids that I live for
Kinda wonder why the fuck I got rich for
Have you ever seen an angel with a pitchfork?
Ever wonder why you ever got picked for?
Only shot five times, but I miss four
So you go first, I've been tryna find me on a soul search
Lost things that I love, but it don't hurt
All this therapy shit really don't work
See I need self-love and my own words
But I know I gotta let my soul decide
Think about peace when I close my eyes
Only I can save me from my own demise

I see these monsters all the time
They show me bad things in my mind
I tried to run, I tried to hide
But they still come back every night
Ooh-ooh, I don't wanna see the monsters
Ooh-ooh, I don't wanna see the monsters
I see these monsters all the time
They show me bad things in my mind

And I know that nobody's perfect
I look at myself, don't know who this person is
Mount the eagles, a whole different version of me
When the real me is closin' the curtains
And tryna make changes, I hope that it's worth it
I'm haunted by trauma, I'm holdin' the sermon
The monster inside of my soul is emergin'
This song is my therapy, hope this is worth it
If you can relate, I hope you can escape
Anything that's a tunnel that you couldn't face
It go stare in the mirror, go look you in the face
I be prayin' for you if you losin' your faith
Hope you heal from the shit that got you in your way
If you feel like you trapped, then you losin' your way
Just know that somebody like you who can say
We our worst enemy and we two of the same

I see these monsters all the time
They show me bad things in my mind
I tried to run, I tried to hide
But they still come back every night