Honest Conversation

It's been while since we talked
I walked and walked and I got lost
And once again, I ended up back here
You say to come just as I am
But do you mean those things you said
I've got so many questions and so much fear
Do you even notice me
As my brain's on fire and I'm losing sleep
You say you're here
But God, that's hard to believe

Can I just be real for a minute
The trust in you gets lost in my feelings
This war inside is flesh and spirit
And it feels like flesh is gonna win it
But you're the one I put my faith in
The proof is that I'm still here praying
I know you care what my heart's really saying
So God let's have an honest conversation

I'm laying all of my cards down
Nothing left to hide, not now
What's the point if I can't tell the truth
You say you're here inside my heart
Then why God do you feel so far
When all I want is to feel so close to you

Can I just be real for a minute
The trust in you gets lost in my feelings
This war inside is flesh and spirit
And it feels like flesh is gonna win it
But you're the one I put my faith in
The proof is that I'm still here praying
I know you care what my heart's really saying
So God let's have an honest conversation
An honest conversation

If you love me
Then why do I hate myself
If you want me
Then why do I want to be someone else
If you know me
Then why do I feel so alone
If there's answers
Then God, won't you tell me so

Can I just be real for a minute
The trust in you gets lost in my feelings
This war inside is flesh and spirit
And it feels like flesh is gonna win it
But you're the one I put my faith in
The proof is that I'm still here praying
I know you care what my heart's really saying
So God let's have an honest conversation
An honest conversation