Little Alien

Woke up feeling sideways
Like I borrowed someone’s skin
My sneakers talk in riddles
They say: You don’t fit in

They told me: Don’t be frightened
It gets easy when you blend
But I keep seeing colors
That they can’t comprehend

But I’m sorry
I couldn’t walk their steady line
I had to sprint toward something mine

I’m just a little alien
In a borrowed human skin
It stings, it spins
It burns like static under the skin

Feels like a crash inside my head
But they said
When you’re older
It’s golden
You’ll adore it
You’ll call it living

They said I could fly
Or learn to stay
That gravity was just a kind of play

They smiled when I asked what fine meant
Like it was a secret they already spent

So forgive me
I couldn’t walk with you
I had to run instead

I’m just a little alien
Trying to pass for human
It’s gonna hurt, it’s gonna spin
It’s gonna feel like falling in

But they said
When you’re older
It’s magic
It’s tragic
You’ll love it

You’ll love it, they said
As if love was the same as surviving