I Sit In Parks

I sit in parks, it breaks my heart 'cause I see
Just how far I am from the things that I want
Dad brought the picnic, mom brought the sunscreen
Two kids are laughing and crying on red swings
We look about the same age but we don't have same Saturdays

Did I miss it? By now is it
A lucid dream? Is it my fault
For chasing things at body clock?
Does it wait for a day the damn tour?
What I want and what I got
I spun around and then I stopped
I'm wondering if I missed the mark

So I sit in parks, sunglasses dark and I
Hit the vape, hallucinate, a nursery with no azark
They lay on a blanket and goddamit he loves her
I wonder if she wants my freedom like I wanna be a mother
But Rolling Stones says I'm on the right road
So I refill my lexapro thinkin'

Did I miss it? By now is it
A lucid dream? Is it my fault
For chasing things at body clock?
Does it wait for a day the damn tour?
What I want and what I got
I spun around and then I stopped
I'm wondering if I missed the mark

Mm-mm
Mm-mm

So I sit in parks checkin' bench marks
Terrence due in June, the album's due in March