I'm Fine (I Lied)

I'm starting over from the ending
No composure, fixing, mending
I'm out of excuses
And everyone loses
No one more than me

I keep it going with no one knowing
But pretty soon the cracks are showing
It only gets harder
Looming and larger
I can barely breathe

I said I'm fine
Turns out I lied
To get by
You said goodbye
Turns out you lied
But I don't mind

Are you asking with already knowing?
Tell me am I telling or am I just showing?
If you think it's so easy
You're welcome to test me
Failing every time

So if you wanted to know, it won't show (Won't show!)
The fuse is already lit and burns slow (Burns slow!)
Yeah I'm a nervous wreck with a reality check so here it goes

I said I'm fine
Turns out I lied
To get by
You said goodbye
Turns out you lied

I'm making a monster
And I'm drowning
Critics laughing, the gallery's frowning
Why is it so hard to be grateful?
When it's payback you get what you paid for

I'm making a monster
And I'm drowning
Critics laughing, the gallery's frowning
Why is it so hard to just be excited?
If you're just passing by I'll tell you that I'm fine
But I fucking lied