natural disaster

I feel the sunset
When it starts to dawn
Every sea I'm in
I think if it would hurt that much
To make myself drown
I don't feel
Blood running through my veins
End up with me
Would end up all of my pain?

Ruined everything
Don't you ever trust my hands
I broke my heart
Pulled all my bends
Was all my fault
Why am I still trying?
I'm dying
Already dead

Soon I might die and I didn't tried love
Nothing that makes me myself
Ever seemed enough
No one as never had me as a priority (as a priority)
All that I try to do end up terribly
The lasting love is hurting early

I don't want to
Keep this painful
What did I did to deserve this?
I don't want to
Seem ungrateful
But I just wish I never existed

Ruined everything
Don't you ever trust my hands
I broke my heart
Pulled all my bends
Always my fault
Why am I still trying?
I'm dying
Already dead

Hmm, oh
Hmm, oh no
Oh, oh

I don't want this mind abuse
Oh, let me live
I can't do it
I can't leave it
I can't, I can't, I can't
End myself

I don't want to
To exist
I'm a freak