Impatient Zero

I have laid down with the angels and the sirens too
Never thought I’d pick up a devil, Got quite a few
I tried to shake them, but they found me with their relentless pace
And the blades grew with the darkness over my lightless days

I remember the fall, I remember the fear
Ever deeper the hole year after year
All the words to find whatever’s nice to hear
I remember the truth fallen to a stone ear

Would a friend try and justify my walk on the ice to die
By insisting on a lie
Such ignorance with arrogance In shadows the knives dance
Stealthy poison leaves no chance

I remember the fall, I remember the fear
Ever deeper the hole year after year
All the words to find whatever’s nice to hear
I remember the truth fallen to a stone ear

I never believed that I’d just walk and be free
I'm held by the memory when I was seen as me

My back’s been holed with wounds
Take a look and nothing shows
It’s just the knives of the old
The void I gasp my breath from chokes my heart again
Let it go still
Let it go cold

I got left on the path of anger
In circles left my mind
I’d seen too much and my wisdom left me
Left me raging blind

I remember the fall, I remember the fear
Ever deeper the hole year after year
All the words to find whatever’s nice to hear
I remember the truth fallen to a stone ear