Why Me

I try my best to give my all
Still I'm the first one to fall
Every step I take feels steep
Every promise I try to keep

I watch others move ahead
While I'm stuck inside my head
Doing everything I can
Still it slips right through my hands

I'm tired of saying it's okay
When it's not okay at all

How much more am I supposed to take
Before I break? Before I fall?
Why me?

Why does it feel so heavy on me?
Why me?
Why is it harder just to breathe?

I push, I fight, I still can't see
What I'm doing wrong
What's wrong with me?
So tell me honestly
Why me?

I smile at someone else again
I say I'm good, I just pretend
Inside I'm screaming at the sky
Asking what I did this time

Every door just barely opens
Just enough to give me hope
Then it shuts before I reach
It leaves me standing there alone

Maybe I'm not weak
Maybe just tired
And maybe I'm not lost
Just constantly rewired

But some nights I still ask why
With tears I never let them see
If I'm giving everything
Why does it come back to me?

Why me?
Why am I fighting silently?
Why me?
Why does this follow me?

I won't quit, but honestly
Sometimes it's too much for me
Still I whisper quietly
Why me?

Maybe I was built to lose
To wear the cracks as all I choose
Maybe I'm the last in line
While everybody else gets turns

I'm so tired of being strong
When it feels like I don't belong
If this is who I'm meant to be
Why does it hurt so much in me?