I haven't really changed

I've been in the same place a thousand times (yeah, yeah)
Feeling the same, shit, dozens of times (uh-huh)
Didn't have the strength to overcome for months (no way)
Wasn't born with luck, no cards in my hands (fuck that)

And I know that thousands wouldn't understand (they don't know)
What it's like to go through this shit, living in the haze (uh)

So I just see my talent turning to punishment (turning to punishment)
The Sun only shines when I'm feeling bent (when I'm feeling bent)

I haven't really changed, just got more confident (more confident)
Wasn't born knowing all, but I'm damn excellent (you know I am)
I’ve been trying to grow up, knowing I hurt out of immaturity (immaturity)
Fighting to pull my parents out, since I cried for this reality (reality)

They don't see how I view every side (every side)
And she doesn’t like it, but she needs me quiet (needs me quiet)

So I just see my talent turning to punishment (turning to punishment)
The Sun only shines when I'm feeling bent (when I'm feeling bent)

I haven't really changed, just got more confident (more confident)
Wasn't born knowing all, but I'm damn excellent (damn excellent)
I’ve been trying to grow up, knowing I hurt out of immaturity (immaturity)
Fighting to pull my parents out, since I cried for this reality (this reality)

And I keep on fighting, with the weight on my shoulders (keep on fighting)
Carrying the burden, while the world gets colder (it's getting colder)
But I know one day I’ll find (I’ll find)
The light that shines, when it’s my time (when it’s my time)

I haven't really changed, just got more confident (more confident)
Wasn't born knowing all, but I'm damn excellent (you know I am)
I’ve been trying to grow up, knowing I hurt out of immaturity (immaturity)
Fighting to pull my parents out, since I cried for this reality (this reality)