Poison-Soaked

How could I be doing it wrong? I need answers
All I have is the memories
A love will place you back in the past
And then evaporate and leave you alone
And I don't know how to heal, I'm a wreck, I need answers
How does one stop the suffering?
I don't know why you're letting me stray
And don't you care if I get away?

And I know who I am, but I guess I'll need nothing
Poison-soaked are the memories
I wonder if it's been too long
Scared you won't relate to who I've become
And the happiness gun's been cold, but it's loaded
Poison-soaked are the memories
You know I haven't found the root, but I'm closer
And it ain't in her anatomy

I've been going through it on no medication
Poison-soaked are the memories
Since I left, I can't hold meditation
Poison-soaked are the memories

I'm drawing something big on the wall
I know you can't see it at all
I'll be anything a person can be
If it'll bring her back to me