Anesthetized

When will I let go?
My pain is numbing in the worst way
Blinded by the light

I let my fear guide me away from you
Away from here
Hopeless and afraid

I’ve reached the bottom
I’ve failed you
I grow weaker by the day
So fragile

Is this bliss or misery?
I begin to claw my way out
It’s not hard to see
I’ve failed myself