scared of company

You see, I fear I'm turning into somebody
That wouldn't ever make my momma proud
I'm wearing women's clothes and got my nails paint
While my girl is naked layin' on the couch
My new obsession is showing up late
And leaving after thirty minutes out
I feel guilty when I pull into my driveway
But since when do I put food inside your mouth?

So when I get to Heaven, can I finally breathe
Or will there always be somebody tryna pull me from beneath? (Yeah)
I'm trying hard to give myself to people, but they leave
Every time I start to fade, 'cause I'm too scared of company

Scared of company, scared, scared of company
Taking me for granted, so I'm scared of company (scared)
Scared of company, scared, scared of company
Everybody leaves, so now I'm scared of company (scared)

See, every night I talk to God on my lonesome
As if I haven't done Him wrong a hundred times
Forgive me, I've been chasing a Nirvana
I don't think anybody knows what's wrong or right
My biggest flaw is givin' tons of chances
Walk all over me and then I'll make you lunch
Why does everybody think I owe them somethin'?
I'm sleeping with my self-worth in my clutch

So when I get to Heaven, can I finally breathe
Or will there always be somebody tryna pull me from beneath? (Yeah)
I'm trying hard to give myself to people, but they leave
Every time I start to fade, 'cause I'm too scared of company

Scared of company, scared, scared of company
Taking me for granted, so I'm scared of company (scared)
Scared of company, scared, scared of company
Everybody leaves, so now I'm scared of company (scared)

Why do I always look after you?
I'm so consumed
No matter what happens, I'll fall for you
I'm so consumed

Weight is on my back
I wish you was fair
Weight is on my back, my back
Do I need somebody? Need somebody?
Need somebody?
Need somebody?