Not my time

I was drowning deep in anger, caught up in a bitter sea
Sinking slowly in all this sorrow that just wouldn’t let me be
I was restless, running reckless, chasing shadows in the night
Looking for a little something just to make the pain feel light

I was ready to let go, ready to leave it all behind
But I guess it ain’t my time, no, I guess it ain’t my time

Maybe there’s something left for me, some work I gotta do
Maybe God’s got something to say, but He’s moving on His cue
I keep asking for a sign, is there a brighter road to find?
‘Cause I know I’ve earned my scars from the nights I let rage run wild

I'm trying to be a better man, a better son to make things right
And if God’s willing, maybe someday be a dad who shines so bright
I'm learning how to fight my demons, learning how to stand up tall
Trying hard to break the cycle, trying hard to break the fall

I was ready to let go, ready to leave it all behind
But I guess it ain’t my time, no, I guess it ain’t my time

Maybe there’s something left for me, some work I gotta do
Maybe God’s got something to say, but He’s moving on His cue
I keep asking for a sign, is there a brighter road to find?
‘Cause I know I’ve earned my scars from the nights I let rage run wild

So here I am, I'm still breathing, still waiting for the call
With my feet stuck on the ground but my back against the wall
Maybe life’s got more to offer, maybe hope ain’t just a dream
But I'm taking this slow, one step at a time
Until I know what it all means

Maybe there’s something left for me, some work I gotta do
Maybe God’s got something to say, but He’s moving on His cue
I keep asking for a sign, is there a brighter road to find?
‘Cause I know I’ve earned my scars from the nights I let rage run wild

I'm trying to be a better man, a better son, that’s my start
And if God’s willing, someday, maybe, I’ll be a dad with a brand-new heart