Genesis, pt. i

They say the twenties are the best years of your life
But I seem to be spending mine missing sunsets
'Cause I'm busy on my phone observing everyone else
How I compare and obsess
Just me, my phone, and these walls
And I've been sober for some months
But I can feel the demons waiting on my downfall
Since I'm so ugly and irrelevant
I've been losing friends as if I'm tryna get rid of them
I Googled why I'm still desperatе for validation and sedatives, huh
Callin' men who don't givе a fuck about me
Then when my mother called I pretend I'm busy
I'm tryna end up anywhere except from where I been
Curtains closed, bed bound, amphetamines, mm
And this devil on my shoulder, man, I'm tryin' to shake him off
My ex is on my timeline, it's as if he's showing off
My self-esteem is Facetune and ring lights
My ego is conquering new heights

I think I need some (Think I need some)
Do you need some? (Do you need some?)
Don't we all need some (We all need some)
Light? (Let there be light)
Da-da-da, da-da-da (There'll be light)
I think I need some (Think I need some)
I lied, I don't think I (Know I need some)
I need some light (Some sweet sunshine)
To feel alright (Please, let there be light)