i wish

No one before had seen me naked like you did
Playing it all out on your floor
I gave you more than just my skin
I gave my skin, my bones, my beating heart
You gave your mad, your sad, and all your scars

I fixed you up, and you pulled me apart
I wish you weren't the way you are

I guess I wish that you loved me the way that I loved you
The way that I wanted
I wish that you didn't just use me to take up the space
And then throw me away like an object
Like decorative garbage you found at the thrift store
I wish I was worth more, wish it would hurt less
I guess if I had one wish to spare
I'd wish that I didn't care, care

Care, care, care, care, care
Care, care, care, care (I wish I didn't care)
Care, care, care, care, care
Care, care, care

I gave you everything you wanted
And you took it from me
And empty-handed, I was useless
You used that against me

Now I'm speeding down the interstate
And I'm crying hard to Ethel Cain
And I pray, and pray that better days
But today, all day

I guess I wish that you loved me the way that I loved you
The way that I wanted
I wish that you didn't just use me to take up the space
And then throw me away like an object
Like decorative garbage you found at the thrift store
I wish I was worth more, wish it would hurt less
I guess if I had one wish to spare
I'd wish that I didn't care, care

Care, care, care, care, care (I wish that I didn't care)
Care, care, care, care (I wish I didn't)
Care, care, care, care, care (I wish I didn't care)
Care, care, care

I gave you everything you wanted and you took it from me
Everything you wanted and you took it from me
Gave you everything you wanted
I just wanted to be wanted
I gave you everything you wanted and you took it from me
Everything you wanted and you took it from me

But if I had one wish to spare
I'd wish that I didn't care, care