Trauma Response

Lonely walking through a blazing fire
I desire something better
I'm always burning
Or I'm freezing in an arctic tundra

I hold myself to survive
On the cold, wicked nights

Open windows so I fan the flames
And toss the pain in
Watch it crackle
First to ashes then it turns to stardust
And I'm so lost

I don't need money or gold
Just give me a hand to hold

I won't apologize for wanting someone by my side
Been solo fighting a war
You can tell I'm getting tired

Maybe I've been way too strong
And its a trauma response
Learning to just bear it all

In the ocean when the tide and currents
Drag me under in an instant
Were all the swimming lessons useless chatter
And do I matter?

I'll save myself once again
While calling out for a friend

I won't apologize for wanting someone by my side
Been solo fighting a war
You can tell I'm getting tired

Maybe I've been way too strong
And its a trauma response
Learning to just bear it all

Ooh, ooh
(Feel it quickly rushing in)
Ooh, ooh
(Feel it quickly rushing in)
Ooh, ooh
If I'm breaking down, let me break down

I won't apologize for wanting someone by my side
Been solo fighting a war
You can tell I'm getting tired

Maybe I've been way too strong
And its a trauma response
Learning to just bear it all