Strange Kind Of Comfort

It's strange how you still cross my mind
When I swore I'd left you behind
I talk big like I'm doing fine
But I still freeze when I see your sign
You're out somewhere chasing dreams
And I'm here replaying the same scenes

You think I'm cool, calm, and detached
But I rehearse that tone, it's an act

It's funny, isn't it?
How the heart won't quit
You're gone, I laugh
But I'm not over it
So I make a joke
Say I'm okay
It's a strange kind of comfort
Lying this way
(I'm okay)

It's weird how silence gets so loud
When I'm lost in a talking crowd
You used to fill those little gaps
Now I fill them with what-ifs and laughs
I tell my friends you're old news
But they know the truth, they always do

You think I'm cool, detached, moved on
But you still show up in every song

It's funny, isn't it?
How the heart won't quit
You're gone, I laugh
But I'm not over it
So I make a joke
Say I'm okay
It's a strange kind of comfort
Lying this way
(I'm okay)

Maybe it's not you I miss
Just the version I thought exists
The way we looked through tinted glass
Made a fairytale that couldn't last
I scroll through lies I used to believe
And laugh, 'cause that's what's left of me
(That's what's, that's what's)
(oh, that's what's left of me)

It's funny, isn't it?
How it still hits
I say: I'm fine
But I don't mean it
So I laugh it off
Pretend I'm brave
It's a strange kind of comfort
I still crave

It's funny you're gone
And I'm still here
Still calling it closure
After all these years