Sister of Selfdestruction.

Step onto my thoughts blades sharp and long,
while I dared to gaze inside myself
and caught a glimpse of what...
you perform your own destruction
and I feel the same delight,
share the wish to die.
Spiritualise this "Death is a mental state"
still anguish it's his name,
fill me up with your chill,
alone in my emptiness,
gratefully I'll receive your pain.

Unworthy to some light,
I long to embrace your fire;
I'll be the tomb where you spread your seed
and along with your blossom I shall expire.

Leave me alone, can't you leave me alone,
the unclean presence of flesh
I cannot bear,
a ballet, well balanced, of pain and forgiveness,
it won't collide and if I'm crushed by
I do not care,
I do no longer care...

No one will ever recognize my fall
and if someone accidentially did,
he wouldn't waste a thought,
would not spare a single thought.
I cannot think of a reason, why I should remain,
only their "faces" might alter,
but my desesperation will stay the same...
(even increases with time...)
The barriers of the gates have simply
desolved within my tears,
the LORD of the dark side, though shapeless,
he waits for me...
"Behold, my beloved, I'll always belong to thee"
I died for your, for you I'll die,
together in a realm of the infinite night;
I died for you, for you I'll die,
blessed be those that dwell in your light...
(Hand in hand in hand in hand,
lifelessly I finally understand!)
Embraced so intimately,
beloved Sister of Selfdestruction,
YOU ARE INSIDE OF ME...

("TIME HEALS NOTHING")