I Still Want To

Tell me we're fake in love
I didn't make this up
Trippin' on every word you said
Am I out of focus
And what was your motive
Talkin' that bullshit to your friends

This isn't confidence
Maybe it kind of is
I know it's fucked up either way
Did I ever have you
Or was it a half truth
Leaving you burned into my brain

Now I can try to face it
But when we're face to face it changes

If there ain't nothin' for us to talk through
Then why do I feel like I wanna call you now
It's deja vu
I know I said I wouldn't but I still want to

Thought it'd be better but this is real life
Tried to forget you but now it feels like hell
It's deja vu
I know I said I wouldn't but I still want to

I keep saying it's worthless
A pain with a purpose
Was keeping it real but somehow got it wrong

But it doesn't matter
It's already shattered
I guess I'm ok with being strung along

Now I can try to face it
But when we're face to face it changes

If there ain't nothin' for us to talk through
Why do I feel like I wanna call you now
It's deja vu
I know I said I wouldn't but I still want to

Thought it'd be better but this is real life
Tried to forget you but now it feels like hell
It's deja vu
I know I said I wouldn't but I still want to

Made a mess of all of this
Blissful in my ignorance
Thinking it was permanent
But I still want to

If there ain't nothin' for us to talk through
Why do I feel like I wanna call you now
It's deja vu
I know I said I wouldn't but I still want to

Thought it'd be better but this is real life
Tried to forget you but now it feels like hell
It's deja vu
I know I said I wouldn't but I still want to