As Good As It Gets

look at my life and
tell me i'm happy
if you could say it with a straight face
then you'd be lying
cause theres this hole deep
deep down inside me
and its been growing since the day
i heard you screaming

this is the very first and last time
i doubt the choices that im making
i lost my head again
cause im working hard just to turn a dime
and blow it all on drowning out my mind
this is a dead end situation
i need to find a way out

all my life
has been a never ending nightmare
and at some point
i left behind
everything that i believed in
or maybe this is a good as it gets

what if you've always been the problem
the root of the dysfunction i've been through?
and i just keep standing by your side
even though its killing me too