vent

Get me the fuck out of here
I cannot breathe
Too many memories
Reminding me of misery
I've tried everything
To numb the fucking pain
To heal a wound that keeps getting ripped open

I've been here long enough
To know I'll never belong
Somehow life is standing still but keeps spinning out of control

Been here long enough
To know I'll never belong

So what am I supposed to feel
When my entire life is crashing down on me
Do I smile and wave, do I pray for change
Or do I put a fucking bullet in my brain?

So what am I supposed to feel
When my entire life is crashing down on me
Do I smile and wave, do I pray for change
Or do I put a fucking bullet in my brain?

I swear to God, every time I close my eyes I want to die
And what keeps me alive is to fantasize
About falling asleep but not waking up
I'm sorry, I just had to let it out