Homunculus

I realized in my last life
That I hate the light
So I keep running
And running
I'm trying to hide
From everything that's inside
This heart that I've tried
To erase and wash away all the shame

Scared to death of what's within
There's bleeding kind of beating, deep beneath the skin
Feel the rattle, ravage, all my sin
Hear it scream behind my chest again
No alchemy can give me what I wish I could be
So I'll try a different body

Just a dash of this and that
A touch of blood and add some mud
My wishes, fears, and painful tears
I wonder when I'll have enough
No form of love can give me what I wish I could be
I pray just change me

I'm broken, torn, and tattered
I'll never be full again
I'll close my eyes and shatter
My heart, rebuild from the start
Disgusting
Even if I somehow find a way to feel alive
I

Realized in my last life
That I hate the light
So I keep running
And running
I'm trying to hide
From everything that's inside
This heart that I've tried
To erase and wash away all the shame
To erase and wash away all the shame

Stuck in the mud in my mind, if I clean up, I swear that I'd shine
I am confined to what is inside
Eating away at the thoughts that I'm trying to hide
And I'm sick of all this wondering if I even deserve to live
I think it's best I rip these feeling out with the rest of it

The breath of life was my demise
I'm cursed until the day I die
Perhaps a better set of eyes
Will blind me from this sin of mine
I've been forsaken, I'm breaking, can take it again
So take from me my mind and let me be

I'm lower than the dirt
A worthless homunculus
Sick of this
Even if I somehow find a way to feel alive
I

Realized in my last life
That I hate the light
So I keep running
And running
I'm trying to hide
From everything that's inside
This heart that I've tried
To erase and wash away all the shame
To erase and wash away all the shame

Toil all day, till this rotten clay
Water and blood just aren't enough
To fill my heart up
Over and over I try to reshape
Crying in shame as I take the pain out
Maybe that can change me
That can save me

I'm broken, torn, and tattered
I'll never be full again
I'll close my eyes and shatter
My heart, rebuild from the start
Disgusting
Even if I somehow find a way to feel alive
I

Realized in my last life
That I hate the light
So I keep running
And running
I'm trying to hide
So maybe in my next life
I'll finally find
Find a way to wash away all the shame
To erase and wash away all the shame